Jessica
Jess. The baby of the family. And now an eternal child. Jess always had anxiety problems as far back as I can remember. I dont know for sure what was genetic and what was caused by Oran Skaw but I know she was hurt badly by him.
Jess was still fairly functional until Jazz was born and serious drugs came into the picture. Intravenous heroin, meth , and, worst of all, bath salts. The BAD kind. She saw bugs everywhere and even tried to kill herself during the worst of it. She is away from that but she never came all the way back. Her doctor at the time told me she wouldn't. But she is more Here than I think he predicted. She has been living with me about 5 or 6 years. We have bad times but most of the time she is very sweet and childlike. That has problems in itself, like she still expects me to be Mom, to be accountable for everything that happens to her, but once i realized these things our life has gone much more smoothly.
She loves her children, she loves all of us.
She almost never leaves the house. She jokes that she is a pro at social distancing because she has been doing it for years. She usually reminds me of Beth in Little Women minus the dying thing. She has that sweetness and desire to help even though she often can't.
I am Very afraid of what will become of her when I am gone. I pray Jeremy will find a way to take care of her although they act like spitting cats when they are around each other. I never give up trying to get Jeremy to SEE her, but with his own disabilities it is hard for him to see and understand anyone elses.
Jess was still fairly functional until Jazz was born and serious drugs came into the picture. Intravenous heroin, meth , and, worst of all, bath salts. The BAD kind. She saw bugs everywhere and even tried to kill herself during the worst of it. She is away from that but she never came all the way back. Her doctor at the time told me she wouldn't. But she is more Here than I think he predicted. She has been living with me about 5 or 6 years. We have bad times but most of the time she is very sweet and childlike. That has problems in itself, like she still expects me to be Mom, to be accountable for everything that happens to her, but once i realized these things our life has gone much more smoothly.
She loves her children, she loves all of us.
She almost never leaves the house. She jokes that she is a pro at social distancing because she has been doing it for years. She usually reminds me of Beth in Little Women minus the dying thing. She has that sweetness and desire to help even though she often can't.
I am Very afraid of what will become of her when I am gone. I pray Jeremy will find a way to take care of her although they act like spitting cats when they are around each other. I never give up trying to get Jeremy to SEE her, but with his own disabilities it is hard for him to see and understand anyone elses.
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