My Daughters

Jess. The baby of the family. And now an eternal child. Jess always had anxiety problems as far back as I can remember. I dont know for sure what was genetic and what was caused by Oran Skaw but I know she was hurt badly by him. Jess was still fairly functional until Jazz was born and serious drugs came into the picture. Intravenous heroin, meth , and, worst of all, bath salts.  The BAD kind.  She saw bugs everywhere and even tried to kill herself during the worst of it. She is away from that but she never came all the way back. Her doctor at the time told me she wouldn't. But she is more Here than I think he predicted. She has been living with me about 5 or 6 years.  We have bad times but most of the time she is very sweet and childlike.  That has problems in itself, like she still expects me to be Mom, to be accountable for everything that happens to her,  but once i realized these things our life has gone much more smoothly. She loves her children, she lov...

I was a little surprised to find this entry. I have talked about KNOWING something was wrong with Jeanette long before she started blowing up this year but didnt realize I had journaled about it in 2014. This was written after Exotica was raided and Jeanette and all the employees were arrested. Jeanettes children had been loving with me for over a year before the raid on Wxotica and we had hardly seen her. She was in love with and literally Slave to Master Jon. I was being evicted from my 2 bedroom apartment (again, I lost my last one for the same reason) and Jeanette was jobless and a total wreck from the raid and imprisonment of Jon. We had to move and she had no income to pay her rent so I offered to move Jeremy, Jess, Jessalynn, Jazz and Kira into her basement until she could get back on her feet. It took a week to clean the moldy, filthy basement. Jeremy and I did it alone.  Even though the kids hadn't lived there, the house was filthy too with dirty, molding dishes stacked i...