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I think maybe I should be missing my daughter, Jeanette. Weird that I really don't or just can't let myself. She has been such a small part of my life for so long there seems to be little to miss. Mostly I have been used as transportation for her children to and from school and a place for them to visit on weekends when she's had other plans or they just wanted to come be we with us. Now Them, I Have missed them immensely. As my life winds down as this continues I know I may never see them again and likely won't know them if I do. I think it's partly that Shut Off valve I understand I installed to deal we with being molested and abused as a child. And then there was the loss of Lindsey when she was 5. I felt I couldn't Feel it and survive it at the time, especially dealing with the loss of my marriage at the same time. I had to shut her in a tiny box in my heart and seal it to survive at the time. Thankfully, when I met Jeremy, he figured out we could call and ...